a mARTIAN dIARY

The waves of religion and religious belief, hope etc have never been calm for me from the  time I realized that Hinduism(my native religion) was not the only religion in the world. Using the word native religion seems a little funny since I could not be born native to any religion. But Of course since my family religion is Hinduism (funny!!!) it makes me a native Hindu.

Though the storms have never been what I would call timid, they have never actually influenced me as much as they have been influencing me for the past few weeks. I could humor myself into believing that the sudden surge of interest in this matter may be due to the smoggy cold weather that my place has been experiencing in the past few says but the truth may (I am almost sure it is) stranger (or maybe even trivial) than this fiction.

Anyway whatever be the reason for this interest I thought I should out into record the questions and the reasons for the questions that have been shadowing my mind.

Like I said I am a native Hindu. I used to consider my religion to be the best. The past tense of the previous sentence must be noted. I have tried in my small way to try and prove or even disprove that thought I had in my mind. What I feel right now is that its not like any religion is right or wrong, actually its more like a question of left and right, with north, south, NW etc thrown in for fun ;). A person searching for a religion that’s purely white may end up disappointed. Certain paths may be wrong or right in their own way but we can’t really grow on that since it’s unlikely that a clear answer may emerge out of all this darkness at least in my lifetime. I could attribute this to the fact that I am materialistic.

YES!!! I love my parker pen and my Honda unicorn and countless other items that a alien to our plant may discard as crap. Yes..that does make me materialistic. But like a thing I once read in an Isaac Asimov novel, Humans have this "guilty pleasure" concept. Through out history what ever makes you happy is considered evil. Maybe it’s because someone wise must have found that making something enjoyable illegal, you have squeeze more pleasure out of it . So if being materialistic is going to make me not understand the meaning of life all I have to say is F word OFF

Here I could use my favorite ‘what if light is dark’ question.Please see my other post on that

Coming back to religion…living in a "secular" country like ours….and unfortunately being a member of the majority community who is really a minority is really stressful. Like I said earlier I am not one to decide whether one religion is good or bad and thus my stand towards each community was done on a ‘person 2 person’ basis. Still I have tried to read up on some religions and frankly some have scared me. We have some verses in my religions proclaiming a particular deity (off about 33crore) to be the true one and to worship him. The content of Christian philosophy as I understand stands on the fact that JC must be followed or we will not gain entry to God’s kingdom. I know there are other branches in Christians that don’t believe in that and that JC is only a messenger…gotta look up on that. I think it’s similar in Islam.

Now I used to believe that tolerance was the key to any ‘popular’ religion. Of course we have small sects like KKK which is different but then again they are not popular. Now how can we have tolerance with basic aims like above? This is quite a paradox.

Personally I feel that majority people don’t give a damn. They want to believe that there is some better palace waiting for them after the wretched life. I wouldn’t blame them because I too believe the same. Then you could say that Religious zealot in the name of principles is a load of crap. But I would not condemn the people doing that since it’s just an avenue for the venting of anger and frustration caused due to ‘other’ reason. The outlook of each religion towards the other is important and order (as in "new world order") for that is absolutely necessary. What this means is that the struggle for Ram Temple is not a silly struggle for constructing a temple over a piece of land rather its just a culmination of the frustration that the Hindus feel over the treatment melted out to them in other spheres of life.

I guess I have asked enough questions for now and answered a few of them I hope. For this is the answer that calmed down the waves I spoke of and hope they don’t catalyze other storms in unknown waters. I think I will deal with my concept of religion in another post

In the Matrix there  is a pivotal scene where the rebels are eating and its Neo’s first ‘real’ meal. There on of the member wonders…Inside the matrix the chicken soup that they eat gives a particular taste…a sensation of the mind…simulated my the matrix. Since the machines don’t have the sense of taste he wonders whether the machines got it wrong and chicken has the taste of shit (ok ok I exaggerated a bit ;))

Similarly…consider the word hate..we use this word with some disgust in our day today life for hate is seen as one of the ‘dark ‘(inverted commas… see later) emotions of humans, Still in most of the ‘Dark’ alleys of mind it resides on, feeding on our most (Well maybe not most) forbidden thoughts lurking around for a chance to show its face. You may think that I might have had a better sentence if I were to use some common adjectives like ‘Ugly’ face etc but the following lines of junk is to address(and maybe disprove) the very usage of this and similar words associated with ‘Dark’ and hatred.

Most of the people i know are two faced (multi is more like it) and i am no different But when i probe into why they have some of the faces(Good faces) mostly what i find is
1) For the religious kind it seems to be a kind of bribe to ensure that they have a smooth "after life" (Lets call this the BRIBE INCENTIVE)…I see some eyebrows shortening ,OK so some of you think that u get a GOOD FEELING When you do this and that’s why u do it and of course i will talk about my atheist friends right now
2) Coming to the FEEL GOOD PEOPLE both religious and atheists I will have to draw a small example if i am to make my Point…Terrorists are some of the main celebrities in our era. Have you ever wondered how they are mad enough actually BLOW themselves up for something totally stupid(from my view point). If a person from his birth is told that the CAUSE 0s bigger than him and all related crap then he is kind of brainwashed into believing in the CAUSE and even becomes stupid enough to die for it. The way i see it (pretty arrogant i seem ,don’t I?) if any body is to be brought up in a "free" state( free does not imply freedom in the territorial sense or simply in the thought sense i mean it in the sense of Will and free from ‘navigation’, incidentally i am convinced that freedom in any form CANNOT exist in the true sense about which i may write another junk) he would be selfish and dark(dark again!!!) for the FEEL GOOD people from their birth have been brainwashed into believing that GOOD is "Good" (please note the difference) this brainwash is not done my some futuristic machine nor is it done overnight. In the actual sense it cannot be called brainwash because WASHING does not take place as its a new cloth. This kind of passive brainwashing takes place over the years from their birth till the present time. I would like to consider myself one of them now i present you with some arguments please think about it

WHATIF hate is not HATE but is LOVE this is what if dark is bright and vice versa. SORRY to disappoint you but i am not a crack(but i guess every crack says that :)) Please see all this in the metaphorical sense what i mean is what if doing bad can actually be good???

This is just a big WHATIF….nothing else….. 

(I wrote this when i was having a fight with one of my special friends niviya.
I was angry at her for something that she said about me…

These words that fall
one by one
divides this paper
or is it just me?

but yet how they carry
the words i wish
my face would say

one day i know
dust would take my place
yet what i feel now would remain
as something that exists…but does not

these feeling though everlasting
are useless , powerless
for they cannot make me not feel
for
their destiny is their death

should i pity them?
for their eternal pain
what greater punishment for an immortal
than a destiny of death

But isn’t it the same as mine?

the wound is fresh
and the knife remains
for blows from back
no armour can prevent
and seldom heal

but is it that big a deal?
for is it right to expect
mercy from the heartless
loyalty from a snake

but does she understand
that with every stroke that she takes
further she gets from the island
the harder it to reach the fire by night
or is it a new shore she search’s?

But i wish i could do my part
stop her from going far
but alas by pride
muffles it up
and churns out this worthless poem

(The line about the shore was originally "new one", Niv’s suggested it to be shore :P)