a mARTIAN dIARY

On this cold monson noon
sitting here listning to old love songs
I long for your look, your touch
knowing its fate that keeps us apart
untill the day the clouds clear
and we can be together

but for now
this feeling i have
this sense of being so close to some one so far
makes me warm inside
with a fire i have never known before

I know god has his own ways
taking the one you love so far away from you
but maybe its the price we pay
for a life time of bliss thereafter

I will leave in a few days
to a unknown land
on a unknown quest
the one thing that remains
known,sure,clear
our love

so let me wipe those tears
for the sake of our future thats to come
hold you in my arms and reaffirm
our love

This is not a stand alone blog’cle as such….this is more of a reply to a very funny (?) post I found….Being a newbie at blogging I was going through the “Kerala Bloggers”  community….and came across Sunil Sam Kurien’s  blog wherein  he has compared love marriage and arranged marriage….more like an intro on arranged love marriage…..then he goes on to list why he wont go for a love marriage and thumbs up for a arranged marriage….My reply…

 
Sam….I really loved they way you introduced the arranged love marriage concept….but the reasons you gave seemed very flawed to me….. Let me explain by quoting you in italics….

 
Why I won’t have a love marriage

1. I simply can’t ‘maintain’ a girlfriend over a long period of time.

That I think you have a serious issue with commitment….its natural but to say that you prefer a arranged marriage for this is pretty confusing to me… what makes you sure that you will be able to “maintain” a wife? Or are you saying that you want to tie your hands down and force yourself to be left with no other choice? Can you please explain how that is better than finding someone you really love or in your words “maintain”?

 

2. I don’t like wasting my money on an endeavor whose probabilistic chances of success might be very less

Ok….so you are sure it won’t succeed? Citing that as a reason for not even starting? So basically you are saying you are scared of actually finding someone you love? Or are sure you wont find…

3. I don’t think I can afford a huge phone bill.

If you carry that kind of a money based attitude to a any marriage….arranged or love…..its not going to help….I am not asking you to be unrealistic and spend all your money….if you guys understand each other I am sure you can find a economical way…..come on AIRTEL is not issuing friends SIM for nothing…. Also something “distance makes the heart grow fonder”

4. They say in a love marriage 50% of the love is over before the marriage. Courtesy Sheila Thomas my English teacher at school.

Ok my math’s teacher say…Lies, damn lies and statistics…..so what if that’s true…..how can u base such a serious judgment on heresy? Even if it’s true….50% marriages are being saved….wont you take that risk to be a person you love?

5. Its a decision you make on your own, so if it kinda fails , you have only yourself to blame.

 So you are scared of making decisions and just want a scapegoat? Mom Dad….look what you did…you got me the wrong girl…and now my life is ruined?? What good is that? To feel that at least you were not responsible for your failed marriage??? And even that is not true….

6. Theres this popular perception in Malluland that more than half the divorces that take place are all in love marriages.

There was a popular perception some time ago the earth was flat!!!

Why I may have an arranged Marriage ?

1. You just don’t have to worry about falling in love

???? That’s the strangest reason I can see…..
2. You make everyone happy, your parents can hold their head held high.

 And when and if your marriage fails? Or what if you guys have a horrid life but seem perfect from outside…..happy with that???

3. The chances of me going to be monetarily compensated are slightly higher.

I know its not all rosy in real life…but marrying for money is one thing that I find really flawed with our society….money is something….but surely not everything in life….

Ok I may being a bit harsh on you….and maybe arranged marriage is not that bad….but certainly not for those reasons you cited…. Yes its not smooth sailing for love marriages….but I think its worth it….. if you have a chance please do read my “No truer words” post…

I meant this in the friendliest possible manner and am looking for your reply….

Regards

Sabari

(This Poem is dedicated to ‘Her’….)

I need your to need me the way that you need me to need you like for a need needed for the greatest need

My need for you to need me the way that i need you is needlessly’ the need whose need keeps me from not needing other needs for leading a needing life

Conclusively i needly need not say instead simply need you with all the need and ask you to…."Please heed to my need"

(Any similarity of the starting lines to a song by the group lobo is purely….imaginary )

The waves of religion and religious belief, hope etc have never been calm for me from the  time I realized that Hinduism(my native religion) was not the only religion in the world. Using the word native religion seems a little funny since I could not be born native to any religion. But Of course since my family religion is Hinduism (funny!!!) it makes me a native Hindu.

Though the storms have never been what I would call timid, they have never actually influenced me as much as they have been influencing me for the past few weeks. I could humor myself into believing that the sudden surge of interest in this matter may be due to the smoggy cold weather that my place has been experiencing in the past few says but the truth may (I am almost sure it is) stranger (or maybe even trivial) than this fiction.

Anyway whatever be the reason for this interest I thought I should out into record the questions and the reasons for the questions that have been shadowing my mind.

Like I said I am a native Hindu. I used to consider my religion to be the best. The past tense of the previous sentence must be noted. I have tried in my small way to try and prove or even disprove that thought I had in my mind. What I feel right now is that its not like any religion is right or wrong, actually its more like a question of left and right, with north, south, NW etc thrown in for fun . A person searching for a religion that’s purely white may end up disappointed. Certain paths may be wrong or right in their own way but we can’t really grow on that since it’s unlikely that a clear answer may emerge out of all this darkness at least in my lifetime. I could attribute this to the fact that I am materialistic.

YES!!! I love my parker pen and my Honda unicorn and countless other items that a alien to our plant may discard as crap. Yes..that does make me materialistic. But like a thing I once read in an Isaac Asimov novel, Humans have this "guilty pleasure" concept. Through out history what ever makes you happy is considered evil. Maybe it’s because someone wise must have found that making something enjoyable illegal, you have squeeze more pleasure out of it . So if being materialistic is going to make me not understand the meaning of life all I have to say is F word OFF

Here I could use my favorite ‘what if light is dark’ question.Please see my other post on that

Coming back to religion…living in a "secular" country like ours….and unfortunately being a member of the majority community who is really a minority is really stressful. Like I said earlier I am not one to decide whether one religion is good or bad and thus my stand towards each community was done on a ‘person 2 person’ basis. Still I have tried to read up on some religions and frankly some have scared me. We have some verses in my religions proclaiming a particular deity (off about 33crore) to be the true one and to worship him. The content of Christian philosophy as I understand stands on the fact that JC must be followed or we will not gain entry to God’s kingdom. I know there are other branches in Christians that don’t believe in that and that JC is only a messenger…gotta look up on that. I think it’s similar in Islam.

Now I used to believe that tolerance was the key to any ‘popular’ religion. Of course we have small sects like KKK which is different but then again they are not popular. Now how can we have tolerance with basic aims like above? This is quite a paradox.

Personally I feel that majority people don’t give a damn. They want to believe that there is some better palace waiting for them after the wretched life. I wouldn’t blame them because I too believe the same. Then you could say that Religious zealot in the name of principles is a load of crap. But I would not condemn the people doing that since it’s just an avenue for the venting of anger and frustration caused due to ‘other’ reason. The outlook of each religion towards the other is important and order (as in "new world order") for that is absolutely necessary. What this means is that the struggle for Ram Temple is not a silly struggle for constructing a temple over a piece of land rather its just a culmination of the frustration that the Hindus feel over the treatment melted out to them in other spheres of life.

I guess I have asked enough questions for now and answered a few of them I hope. For this is the answer that calmed down the waves I spoke of and hope they don’t catalyze other storms in unknown waters. I think I will deal with my concept of religion in another post

In the Matrix there  is a pivotal scene where the rebels are eating and its Neo’s first ‘real’ meal. There on of the member wonders…Inside the matrix the chicken soup that they eat gives a particular taste…a sensation of the mind…simulated my the matrix. Since the machines don’t have the sense of taste he wonders whether the machines got it wrong and chicken has the taste of shit (ok ok I exaggerated a bit )

Similarly…consider the word hate..we use this word with some disgust in our day today life for hate is seen as one of the ‘dark ‘(inverted commas… see later) emotions of humans, Still in most of the ‘Dark’ alleys of mind it resides on, feeding on our most (Well maybe not most) forbidden thoughts lurking around for a chance to show its face. You may think that I might have had a better sentence if I were to use some common adjectives like ‘Ugly’ face etc but the following lines of junk is to address(and maybe disprove) the very usage of this and similar words associated with ‘Dark’ and hatred.

Most of the people i know are two faced (multi is more like it) and i am no different But when i probe into why they have some of the faces(Good faces) mostly what i find is
1) For the religious kind it seems to be a kind of bribe to ensure that they have a smooth "after life" (Lets call this the BRIBE INCENTIVE)…I see some eyebrows shortening ,OK so some of you think that u get a GOOD FEELING When you do this and that’s why u do it and of course i will talk about my atheist friends right now
2) Coming to the FEEL GOOD PEOPLE both religious and atheists I will have to draw a small example if i am to make my Point…Terrorists are some of the main celebrities in our era. Have you ever wondered how they are mad enough actually BLOW themselves up for something totally stupid(from my view point). If a person from his birth is told that the CAUSE 0s bigger than him and all related crap then he is kind of brainwashed into believing in the CAUSE and even becomes stupid enough to die for it. The way i see it (pretty arrogant i seem ,don’t I?) if any body is to be brought up in a "free" state( free does not imply freedom in the territorial sense or simply in the thought sense i mean it in the sense of Will and free from ‘navigation’, incidentally i am convinced that freedom in any form CANNOT exist in the true sense about which i may write another junk) he would be selfish and dark(dark again!!!) for the FEEL GOOD people from their birth have been brainwashed into believing that GOOD is "Good" (please note the difference) this brainwash is not done my some futuristic machine nor is it done overnight. In the actual sense it cannot be called brainwash because WASHING does not take place as its a new cloth. This kind of passive brainwashing takes place over the years from their birth till the present time. I would like to consider myself one of them now i present you with some arguments please think about it

WHATIF hate is not HATE but is LOVE this is what if dark is bright and vice versa. SORRY to disappoint you but i am not a crack(but i guess every crack says that ) Please see all this in the metaphorical sense what i mean is what if doing bad can actually be good???

This is just a big WHATIF….nothing else…..